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Music to Write By, BSG-style: Part 3

Yes, believe it or not, I need to make a third playlist post. (Well, not NEED per se, but I know there are at least several people on my f-list who are interested in this stuff, so ...) The last one was in January of this year, at which point the list had 112 songs on it and lasted 7.2 hours long. Now, as I type this, it's got 173 songs and spans 11.5 hours. Yeeeeeeah. At this rate I'll need to update the playlist about once every six months or so. *facedesk*

The playlist's growth can be attributed at least in part to me fleshing out the later parts of the fic in a bit more detail than was previously present in the outline, and also to the fact that I've gotten to know several characters who have or will have roles in the story a lot better than I initially did. It might sound strange, but I get to know fic characters - original or canon - in much the same way as I get to know new people in real life. They introduce themselves to me and for a while I know them only by name; I have no idea about their pasts or futures or what they like to do or what makes them tick. Then, gradually, they start talking to me, telling me about themselves, and we develop a dialogue. With friends and acquaintances in RL, obviously the conversation is two-way, and I tell them as much about myself as they tell me about themselves while we interact. But fic characters are a tad trickier - because they live on a screen, or in my head, we can't exactly meet for coffee and a chat. ;) For this reason, one of the major ways I connect with fic characters is through music.

Sometimes, the moment I hear a particular song it will remind me of a character. But usually the process is a bit more involved. I might start out thinking a song applies to one character, and all of a sudden one day my perspective flips and I realize that it's actually someone totally different speaking through the song. And once I understand this, all bets are off. I'll often listen to the song over and over, on repeat, and develop an entire backstory thanks to the song. This is largely the way things have worked with Will - I knew the basic facts of what would happen to him throughout the life of Insanity Underrated, but the specifics were elusive until a couple months ago. Now, I have his backstory completely mapped out (or forestory, I suppose, since he's like two right now!) and I feel like I know almost every inch of his personality, yet there's still wiggle room present. It's unlikely that a whole lot of the backstory/forestory will wind up being expounded upon in IU proper, but I as the author need to know it. The same applies to several other characters, some of whom readers have yet to meet. But their backstories/forestories are just as developed, just as carefully thought out, and just as inspired by music as Will's is.

Anyway. Whew, tangent. Point is, some of the songs in this installment of the playlist have to do with Will's backstory, or the backstories of other characters who have yet to be introduced. There are still tons of songs that are Kara/Lee-centric, of course, but the playlist has taken on a bit of a different flavour since I've started to think more in-depth about exactly how future events will unfold. Everything was in the outline already, but I'm now refining specifics. :)

As always, partial lyrics are included here with full lyrics linked in the title of the song. Some songs have commentary, some don't, and if I don't say anything about a song, it's usually because whatever I could say would be spoilery, and I'm not getting into that no matter how ardently some of you (*cough*stripes13*cough*) might attempt to persuade me. ;D

Links to previous parts of the playlist: PART ONE | PART TWO

Gaeta's Lament
The Signal
Farewell Apollo
Among the Ruins
Cally Descends
Gaeta's Lament - Instrumental
Blood on the Scales
Grand Old Lady
Kara Remembers
Dreilide Thrace Sonato No. 1
Diaspora Oratorio
The Line
Assault on the Colony
Baltar's Sermon
Kara's Coordinates
Goodbye Sam
An Easterly View
The Passage of Time

These are all, of course, from the Season 4 BSG soundtrack. Now, before anybody panics and starts commenting with, "EEK, does this mean [insert character name here] is going to die?????" remember that just because I have a particular soundtrack piece on the playlist, doesn't mean it exactly corresponds to the same scene in the fic. For example, "A Good Lighter" from the S1 soundtrack signifies not the scene to which it belongs in "Hand of God", but rather the scene where Bill Adama first meets his grandson in Insanity Underrated. So, don't necessarily take the inclusion of these tracks at face value. Oh, except for the ones that are there because a similar scene will appear in IU. Mwahahahahahahaha. ;)

I'll Stand By You - The Pretenders
Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
Cause I've seen the dark side too.

When the night falls on you, you don't know what to do,
Nothing you confess could make me love you less
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.

So, if you're mad get mad, don't hold it all inside,
Come on and talk to me now.
And hey, what you got to hide? I get angry too
But I'm a lot like you.
When you're standing at the crossroads, don't know which path to choose,
Let me come along, cause even if you're wrong
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.

(This is very, very much an ensemble song, applying not only to Kara/Lee but also to some other couples in the story. Can't say much more than that right now.)

Airbag - Radiohead
In the next world war
In a jackknifed juggernaut
I am born again

In the neon sign
Scrolling up and down
I am born again

In an interstellar burst
I am back to save the universe

In a deep deep sleep of the innocent
I am born again

Watermark - Enya

(This is more of an instrumental piece, so no lyrics, but it is absolutely beautiful. One of my favourites by her. :D)

Falling Away With You - Muse
I can't remember when it was good
Moments of happiness elude
Maybe I just misunderstood

All of the love we left behind
Watching the flashbacks intertwine
Memories I will never find

So I'll love whatever you become
And forget the reckless things we've done
I think our lives have just begun
I think our lives have just begun

And I'll feel my world crumbling,
And I'll feel my life crumbling
And feel my soul crumbling away
And falling away,
falling away with you

(This song and the preceding two I first discovered through one of workerbee73's K/L playlists, and I ended up liking those songs so much that I decided to appropriate them for IU as well. She probably won't read this, but, thanks Bee! :D)

Ordinary Miracle - Sarah McLachlan
Life is like a gift, they say
Wrapped up for you every day
Open up, and find a way
To give some of your own

Isn't it remarkable?
Like every time a raindrop falls
It's just another
Ordinary miracle today

The birds in winter have their fling
And always make it home by spring
It's just another
Ordinary miracle today

When you wake up everyday
Please don't throw your dreams away
Hold them close to your heart
'Cause we are all a part

Of the ordinary miracle

Pale - Within Temptation
I know, should realize
Time is precious, it is worthwhile
Despite how I feel inside
Have to trust it'll be all right
Have to stand up to be stronger

I have to try to break free
From the thoughts in my mind
Use the time that I have
I can't say goodbye,
Have to make it right
Have to fight, cause I know
In the end it's worthwhile
That the pain that I feel slowly fades away
It will be all right

Oh, this night is too long
Have no strength to go on
No more pain, I'm floating away
Through the mist see the face
Of an angel, who calls my name
I remember you're the reason I have to stay

(This is one of those few songs that have the rare and privileged honour of being on both the IU playlist and the To Ignite the Stars playlist. Not many songs can cross-pollinate like that, as it were, but this one does. I was looking for a song for Lee during the "Sacrifice" arc, and Pale fits like a glove.)

10,000 Miles - Mary Chapin Carpenter
Fare thee well
My own true love
Farewell for a while
I'm going away
But I'll be back
Though I go 10,000 miles

10,000 miles
My own true love
10,000 miles or more
The rocks may melt
And the seas may burn
If I should not return

Oh don't you see
That lonesome dove
Sitting on an ivy tree
She's weeping for
Her own true love
As I shall weep for mine

Oh come ye back
My own true love
And stay a while with me
If I had a friend
All on this earth
You've been a friend to me

(Another song that's on both playlists. More, I cannot say. :P)

Answer - Sarah McLachlan
I will be the answer
At the end of the line
I will be there for you
While you take the time
In the burning of uncertainty
I will be your solid ground
I will hold the balance
If you can't look down

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all gone out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind
Take me to a
Place so holy
That I can wash this from my mind
The memory of choosing not to fight

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
'Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all burned out
You'll still be burning so bright

(Possibly my very favourite Sarah McLachlan song. I literally almost cried the first time I heard it. Could apply at various different points in IU, some of which have happened, some of which haven't.)

Cat's in the Cradle - Harry Chapin
My child arrived just the other day
He came to the world in the usual way
But there were planes to catch, and bills to pay
He learned to walk while I was away
And he was talking before I knew it and as he grew
He said, "I’m gonna be like you, Dad,
You know I’m gonna be like you."

And the cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man in the moon
When you coming home, Dad, I don’t know when,
But we'll get together then, Son,
You know we'll have a good time then.

My son turned ten just the other day
He said "Thanks for the ball, Dad, come on let's play,
Can you teach me to throw?"
I said, "Not today, I got a lot to do." He said "That's okay."
And then he walked away but his smile never dimmed
And said "I’m gonna be like him, yeah
You know I’m going to be like him."

And the cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man on the moon
When you coming home, Dad, I don't know when,
But we'll get together then, Son,
You know we'll have a good time then.

Well he came from college just the other day
So much like a man I just had to say,
"Son, I’m proud of you, can you sit for a while?"
He shook his head, and he said with a smile,

"What I'd really like, Dad, is to borrow the car keys
See you later, can I have them please?"

And the cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man on the moon
When you coming home, Son, I don't know when,
But we'll get together then, Dad,
You know we'll have a good time then.

I’ve long since retired, my son's moved away
I called him up just the other day ...
I said "I'd like to see you if you don’t mind."
He said "I'd love to Dad, if I could find the time.
You see my new job's a hassle, and the kids have the flu.
But it's sure nice talking to you, Dad,
It's been sure nice talking to you ..."
And as I hung up the phone it occurred to me
He'd grown up just like me,
My boy was just like me ...

And the cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man on the moon
When you coming home, Son, I don't know when,
But we'll get together then, Dad
We're gonna have a good time then.

(I find the father-son relationship between Bill and Lee absolutely fascinating. I have my own personal canon as to why it became so damaged and how it evolved throughout the series, which I understand not everyone agrees with, but I love exploring it in my fics. If I had to find one song to summarize the relationship and my view of it, I'd pick this one. Could have been written about them, seriously.)

Like O, Like H - Tegan & Sara
When I was 8
I was sure
I was growing nerves
Like steel in my palm
Make a map of what you see
Direct pain effectively
I was 8
I was sure
I was growing pain
Like lead in my feet

SOS to my mother
Take the hinges off the door
SOS to my mother
Take the hinges off the door
Oh, oh, sugar spell it out
Like oh, oh, sugar spell it out
Like oh, oh, sugar spell it out
Like O, like H in your gut
Like O, like H in your gut
Like O, like H in your gut
In your gut

When I was four plus a ten
I was swinging fists
Like nails in a board
Pull your hands inside of you
Six years 'till I'll be through
I was four plus a ten,
I was swinging back
Like a race to be sure
SOS to my mother
Take the hinges off the door
SOS to my mother
Take the hinges off the door

(A Kara song, obviously. This and the following nine songs come from nytel's awesome Kara fanmix. Again, so many of the songs were appropriate for IU that I decided to make it part of the playlist. Thanks, nytel!)

Only Happy When It Rains - Garbage
I'm only happy when it rains
I feel good when things are going wrong
I only listen to the sad sad songs
I'm only happy when it rains

I only smile in the dark
My only comfort is the night gone black
I didn't accidentally tell you that
I'm only happy when it rains
You'll get the message by the time I'm through
When I complain about me and you
I'm only happy when it rains

Better Version Of Me - Fiona Apple
Can't take a good day without a bad one
Don't feel just to smile until I've had one
Where did I learn

I make a fuss about a little thing
The rhyme is losing to the riddling
Where's the turn

I don't want a home, I'd ruin that
Home is where my habits have a habitat
Why give it a turn

Sober - Pink
I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don't wanna be that call at 4 o'clock in the morning
'Cause I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home

Ah the sun is blinding
I stayed up again
Oh, I am finding
That's not the way I want my story to end

I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
You're my protection
How do I feel this good sober?

I don't wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence
The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
I won't remember, save your breath, 'cause what's the use?

Ah, the night is calling
And it whispers to me softly come and play
Ah, I am falling
And If I let myself go I'm the only one to blame

(This song is very, very special to me right now - but I can't tell you the reason yet! Darn spoilers. ;P I will say that the person it describes is neither Kara nor Lee ... and it's not Will, either.)

Dancing Dirt Into The Snow - Missy Higgins
The more you push through broken glass, the thicker it becomes.
And the more you turn on broken worlds, the sooner you will need.
The more you push through broken glass, the thicker it becomes.
And the more you turn on broken worlds, the sooner you will need
A gun.

'Cause you're dancing dirt into the snow
while others look at you on show.
You're dancing dirt into the snow
while all around you people grow.

Sleeping Sickness - City and Colour
I awoke only to find my lungs empty
And through the night, so it seems I'm not breathing
And now my dreams are nothing like they were meant to be
And I'm breaking down, I think I'm breaking down

And I'm afraid to sleep because of what haunts me
Such as living with the uncertainty
That I'll never find the words to say which would completely explain
Just how I'm breaking down

Someone come and, someone come and save my life
Maybe I'll sleep when I am dead
But now it's like the night is taking sides
With all the worries that occupy the back of my mind
Could it be this misery will suffice?

I've become a simple souvenir of someone's kill
And like the sea, I'm constantly changing from calm to ill
Madness fills my heart and soul, as if the great divide could swallow me whole
Oh, how I'm breaking down

(Kara's POV. You may possibly be able to guess when.)

Breathe Me - Sia
Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

(One of my favourite songs, period. Six Feet Under shout-out! :D)

Details In The Fabric - Jason Mraz
Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.

Yeah everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all

War Of My Life - John Mayer
Come out angels
Come out ghosts
Come out darkness
Bring everyone you know

I'm not running
I'm not scared
I am waiting and well-prepared

I'm in the war of my life
At the door of my life
Out of time and there's nowhere to run

I've got a hammer
And a heart of glass
I got to know right now
Which walls to smash

I got a pocket
Got no pills
If fear hasn't killed me yet
Then nothing will

Clean Getaway - Maria Taylor
I met someone at the bar
He had a great smile and a great heart
He felt just like love
Except no fear of losing, and it wasn't tough

I finally made it
I made a clean getaway
I finally made it
I made a clean getaway
And I miss you
I miss you every single day

(As I said in an earlier playlist post, Zak is never very far from either Kara's or Lee's thoughts. "Gypsy Biker" is included on the playlist as a song from Lee's POV. This is Kara's.)

Right Here Waiting - Richard Marx
I took for granted all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh can't you see it baby
You got me going crazy

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive this romance
But in the end if I'm with you I'll take the chance

(Lee's POV. I've always liked this song, for some reason.)

Train Wreck - Sarah McLachlan
Your love in all its finery
Tears up the darkness all around me
Until I can breathe again
Until I believe again

Cause I'm a train wreck
Waiting to happen
Waiting for someone to come pick me up off the tracks
A wildfire born of frustration
Born of a world, oh, that gets me so high
I've no fear at all

But your eyes like midnight fireflies
Light up the trenches where my heart lies
Until I can see again
Find my way back again

Cause I'm a train wreck
Waiting to happen
Waiting for someone to come pick me up off the tracks
A wildfire born of frustration
born of the one love that gets me so high

I've no fear at all
To fall so deep into you
Loose myself completely
In your sweet embrace
All my pain's erased

(My brother actually sent me this song! o.O I was messaging back and forth with him one day about Kara/Lee and Insanity Underrated's plotline - he's a BSG fan as well, though not as obsessed with it as I am - and the next morning I woke up to an email from him starting out, "Hey, I thought of this perfect song for your fic ..." and a link to the lyrics. And it WORKS. Oh wow does it work. Kara's POV, by the way.)

Shades of Grey - Billy Joel
Once there were trenches and walls
and one point of every view
Fight 'til the other man falls
Kill him before he kills you
These days the edges are blurred,
I'm old and tired of war
I hear the other man's words
I'm not that sure anymore

Shades of grey are all that I find
When I look to the enemy line
Black and white was so easy for me
But shades of grey are the colors I see

Now with the wisdom of years
I try to reason things out
And the only people I fear
are those who never have doubts
Save us all from arrogant men,
and all the causes they're for
I won't be righteous again
I'm not that sure anymore

(Lee's POV, and PERFECT for the S4 arc of the fic.)

Right Here All Along - Amanda Marshall
And in your eyes I see the reason
In your smile I see the road that takes me home
In my heart I know the answer
That all the things I looked so hard to find
Were right here all along - right here all along

Sometimes life can make you tired
You get so used to being on your own
Looking for something to count on (something to count on baby)
Wishing for a love that's carved in stone
But I can hear you through my worry
Your voice is telling me, "Let go."

When I needed someone to count on
You were right here all along
When I needed someone to lean on
You were right here all along
And when I needed a hand to hold
You were right here all along
And when I thought I had nobody baby
You were right here all along

(Another song that can apply not just to Kara/Lee, but to multiple couples. *grin*)

Worlds Apart - Bruce Springsteen
I hold you in my arms, yeah that's when it starts
I seek faith in your kiss and comfort in your heart
I taste the seed upon your lips, lay my tongue upon your scars
But when I look into your eyes we stand worlds apart

Where the distant oceans sing and rise to the plain
In this dry and troubled country your beauty remains
Down from the mountain road where the highway rolls to dark
'Neath Allah's blessed rain we remain worlds apart

Sometimes the truth just ain't enough
Or is it too much in times like this
Let's throw the truth away we'll find it in this kiss
In your skin upon my skin in the beating of our hearts
May the living let us in before the dead tear us apart

(Lee's POV again.)

Ain't No Sunshine - Bill Withers
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
It's not warm when she's away
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
And she's always gone too long anytime she goes away

Wonder this time where she's gone
Wonder if she's gone to stay
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
And this house just ain't no home anytime she goes away

(You may be able to figure out to which character and situation this applies. Then again, you may not. ;))

When You Say Nothing At All - Ronan Keating
It's amazing
How you can speak
Right to my heart
Without saying a word,
You can light up the dark
Try as I may
I could never explain
What I hear when
You don't say a thing

The smile on your face
Lets me know
That you need me
There's a truth
In your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me
Whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all

All day long
I can hear people
Talking out loud
But when you hold me near
You drown out the crowd
Try as they may
They could never define
What's been said
Between your
Heart and mine

(This is definitely, absolutely Kara/Lee all the way - from his POV. :D)

You've Got A Way - Shania Twain
You've got a way with me
Somehow you got me to believe
In everything that I could be
I've gotta say - you really got a way
You've got a way it seems
You gave me faith to find my dreams
You'll never know just what that means
Can't you see ... you got a way with me

It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what love's made of
It's in the way we make love

You've got a way with words
You get me smiling even when it hurts
There's no way to measure what your love is worth
I can't believe the way you get through to me

It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what love's made of
It's in the way we make love

(K/L, from Kara's POV this time.)

She - Elvis Costello
She may be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
She may be the song the summer sings
May be the chill the autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day

She may be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell
She may be the mirror of my dreams
The smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may seem inside her shell

She who always seems so happy in a crowd
Whose eyes can be so crowded and so proud
No one's allowed to see them when they cry
She may be the love that cannot hope to last
May come to me from shadows of the past
But I'll remember till the day I die

She may be the reason I survive
The why and wherefore I'm alive
The one I'll care for through the rough in many years
Me, I'll take her laughter and her tears
And make them all my souvenirs
For where she goes I've got to be
The meaning of my life is she

(Lee's perception of Kara ... yes, rather sappy, but can you tell me with a straight face that he wouldn't think this way about her at least sometimes? Yeah, thought not. ;P)

The One - Elton John
In the instant that you love someone
In the second that the hammer hits
Reality runs up your spine
And the pieces finally fit

And all I ever needed was the one
Like freedom fields where wild horses run
When stars collide like you and I
No shadows block the sun
You're all I've ever needed
Baby you're the one

Truly Madly Deeply - Savage Garden
I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do
I will be strong I will be faithful
'Cause I'm counting on a new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me ...

(Again, Lee. I picture him as a romantic at heart; sue me. ;D)

I Don't Want to Miss a Thing - Aerosmith
Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

(This, however, is not Lee. It's somebody else, though I can't tell you who just yet. Not Kara either.)

Paperweight - Joshua Radin
Been up all night
Staring at you
Wondering what’s on your mind
I’ve been this way with so many before
but this feels like the first time

You want the sunrise
Go back to bed
I wanna make you laugh

Mess up my bed with me
Kick off the covers I’m waiting
Every word you say I think I should write down
Don’t want to forget come daylight

Happy to lay here
Just happy to be here
I’m happy to know you
Play me a song
Your newest one
Please leave your taste on my tongue
Paperweight on my back
Cover me like a blanket

(Also not Kara or Lee, but not the same person or couple as in the preceding song, either!)

How We Operate - Gomez
Please come here
Please come on over
There is no line that you can't step right over
Without you well I'm left hollow
So can we decide to try a little joy tomorrow
'Cause baby tonight I'll follow

Turn me inside out and upside down
And try to see things my way
Turn a new page, tear the old one out
And I'll try to see things your way

The way that we've been speaking now
I swear that we'd be friends, I swear
'Cause all these little deals go down with
Little consequences, we share, we share

(This and the next nine songs come from another fanmix of nytel's, Sick Cycle Carousel. I've had this one downloaded to my computer forever, but only listened to it the other day, and again, so many of the songs fit that I couldn't help adding them to the IU playlist. :))

Sick Cycle Carousel - Lifehouse
If shame had a face I think it would kind of look like mine
If it had a home would it be my eyes
Would you believe me if I said I'm tired of this
Well here we go now one more time

'Cause I try to climb your steps
I try to chase you down
I try to see how low I can get down to the ground
I try to earn my way
I try to tame this mind
You better believe that I am trying to beat this

So when will this end
It goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good

I never thought I'd end up here
Never thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kind of thought that it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong now one more time

Wake Up - Three Days Grace
I’m not sober all the time
You bring me down at least you try
Until we see this eye to eye
I don’t want you

I must be running out of luck
Cause you’re just not drunk enough to fuck
And now I’ve had it up to here
I don’t, I don’t want you

It took so long to see
You walked away from me
When I need you
Wake up I’m pounding on the door
I’m not the man I was before
Where the hell are you
When I need you
Wake up I’m pounding on the door
I won’t hurt you anymore
Where the hell are you
When I need you

I’m not angry all the time
You push me down at least you try
Until we see this eye to eye
I don’t want you

(Not K/L-related - you could definitely see it that way, but for my purposes, it has to do with somebody different.)

All At Once - The Fray
There are certain people you just keep coming back to
She is right in front of you
You begin to wonder could you find a better one
Compared to her now she's in question

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there

Looking for the right one you line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind
But she won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt
Much longer for you to sort it out

Sex On Fire - Kings of Leon
The dark of the alley, the breaking of day
The head while I'm driving, I'm driving
Soft lips are open, knuckles are pale
Feels like you're dying, you're dying

You, your sex is on fire
Consumed with what's to transpire

Hot as a fever, rattling bones
I could just taste it, taste it
If it's not forever, if it's just tonight
Oh, it's still the greatest, the greatest, the greatest

Please Don't Leave Me - Pink
I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
When my heart is broken

Please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please don't leave me

How did I become so obnoxious
What is it with you that makes me act like this
I've never been this nasty
Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don't mean it
I mean it, I promise

Please don't leave me
(Don't leave me)
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please don't leave me

I forgot to say out loud,
How beautiful you really are to me,
I can't be without

(Like "Sober", I adore this song right now, and for similar reasons, I can't tell you why! Silly spoilers. ;D This one does involve Kara, though it is not from her POV. It's about her relationship with someone - that someone not being Lee, by the way.)

Twisted - Carrie Underwood
Baby you're a wrecking ball
Crashing into me
Nothing I can do but fall
Piece by piece
You broke down every part of me
That ever thought I'd never need you, baby

It's twisted, messed up
And the more I think about it
It's crazy, but so what
I may never understand it
I'm caught up and I'm hanging on
I'm gonna love you even if it's wrong

Everybody's telling me
I'm over my head
If they don't feel you loving me
They all say that I've gone crazy
Maybe, but it's too late now to save me
I'm too tangled

Clear The Area - Imogen Heap
Knock, knock ... are you alone?
No one's out here and I was not followed
Love, love ... you're already home
Party's over and you don't look so good

You find your way back down
And I'll keep the area clear ... please clear the area
When you find your way back down ... in one piece
Then I'll just be waiting here ... right here

Low light ... mercury morning ...
No need to stay as it's always nothing
But your eyes tell a whole other story ... and I feel the weight of the world
Won't talk ... won't try ... just move ...
It's too still in your sadness
Cry ... give up ... it's okay ...
You've just got to trust me

(Also not K/L-related ...)

Need You Now - Lady Antebellum
Picture-perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call, but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

(This, for me, captures almost perfectly what both Kara and Lee would have been thinking the night it started, when he came to visit her in sickbay. I was really happy to find this song, because believe it or not I didn't actually have one for that night. Heh.)

I'm Not Dead - Pink
It's the fifth day of ice on a new tattoo
But the ice should be on our heads
We only spun the web to catch ourselves
So we weren't left for dead

And I was never looking for approval from anyone but you
And though this journey is over I'll go back if you ask me to

I'm not dead just floating
Right between the ink of your tattoo
In the belly of the beast we turned into
I'm not scared just changing
Right beyond the cigarette and the devilish smile
You're my crack of sunlight

You can do the math a thousand ways but you can't erase the facts
That others come and others go but you always come back
I'm a winter flower underground always thirsty for summer rain
And just like the change of seasons
I know you'll be back again
Tags: bsg, fic: insanity underrated, kara/lee, writing

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