March 16th, 2007

BSG - Default

Unofficial Muse

Post Number: One
Post Made: December 19, 2003 @ theatrical_muse
Post Topic: Do you feel that you were born with a predetermined role in society? If so, how do you feel about it?
Name of Muse: Padmé Amidala
Timeframe: I picture this being set right at the beginning of AotC. Yay official!Padmé. Although she is rather boring to write.

In some ways I suppose I do feel as though my role has been predetermined. The Jedi feel that everything is predetermined, and that nothing can be left to chance. I'm not so sure I would say that, but there is something that has definitely pulled me towards the life I now lead, whether it be the Force or destiny or something else.

On Naboo, it is expected that you enter public service after your schooling, so everyone does that as a matter of course. It is up to the particular person whether s/he continues in that vein, however. Most retire or pursue careers in artisanship or teaching, like my father did. But I chose to stay, mostly because I could not picture doing anything else in my life but public service.

I made a choice. I really did. I have seen some Senators balance family and politics, and I'm not sure f I could do the same. In fact, I know I could not do the same. One or the other would always be wanting for my attention, and I am not very good at dividing my attention. Wait, no, that isn't precisely true. I can handle divisions of my attention. I do it all the time in the Senate; in fact I would go so far as to say that the ability to multitask is an essential component of a Senate career. Often I have multiple things competing for my attention, and I must prioritize and quickly decide which one deserves to be tackled first.

Oh, Force, I appear to be getting off-topic. What I meant was that although I am good at prioritizing tasks within the Senate, I feel that this is all I have time for at the moment. A husband and most especially children would not fit in. That's just how it is.

So I made a choice, many years ago, that if love happened upon me, I would do everything within my power to refuse it. I will hold that vow. I sometimes feel guilty about this, and I love watching my nieces at play, but ... no, I have made a choice. That's that.