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Music to Write By, Part 2

So, I survived this week, go me! Tomorrow I will in all probability have to put in some overtime at work, but things definitely won't be as crazy as they were on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. The special issue is almost done, which makes things a lot easier.

I'm rewarding myself tonight by playing with Kara!pup a bit, and also by putting in some heavy work on TIS. I'm about to write a scene that is ... well, quite pivotal in the fic, and in the lives of Obi-Wan and Padmé themselves, and this got me thinking again about the TIS playlist, which follows the overall arc of my baby quite closely. If you looked at some of the song lyrics and thought about them, you could probably gain some insights into exactly where things are going, although matters are of course fluid and subject to change without notice (hell, sometimes this thing doesn't even notify me, the author, before deciding to make changes!). There are definitely some very broad plot points that will follow canon and are therefore pretty much set in stone. My brain is starting to think a lot about the Original Trilogy right now, since the fic will be reaching that point in the not-too-distant future (well, okay, probably not for another couple months' worth of writing, but still) and what will change and what won't given how things are setting up. Some plot points will certainly be made a bit clearer, that's for sure.

Anyway, awhile back I made a post about the TIS playlist, as it was on November 8th. Since then it's gone through some revisions, to say the very least. All of the original songs are still on there, but I've begun adding some stuff that will apply more to the OT, as well as songs that examine the Obi-Wan/Padmé TIS relationship in different ways. I recently discovered the band Within Temptation, whose album The Silent Force (HEH) could practically have been written about TIS, so a metric ton of their songs are on there. I've only included the songs added most recently in this post - for the others, the ones that haven't changed, feel free to check out the above post. :)

As always there are some notes explaining the inclusion of the songs, although some contain more details than others. This is for spoiler reasons, obviously. XD In most cases I've included only partial lyrics, but each song title is a link to the full lyrics if you want them.



The Lady In Red - Chris De Burgh
I've never seen you looking so lovely as you did tonight
I've never seen you shine so bright
You were amazing
I have never seen that dress you're wearing
Or those highlights in your hair
That catch your eyes
I have been blind

The lady in red
Is dancing with me
Cheek to cheek
There's nobody here
It's just you and me
It's where I wanna be
I hardly know
This beauty by my side
I'll never forget
The way you look tonight


(If Obi-Wan and Padmé were dancing somewhere, sometime, this might potentially be what they'd dance to in my mind. *cough*)

You're the Inspiration - Chicago
You know our love was meant to be
The kind of love that lasts forever
And I need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time

You should know, everywhere I go
You're always on my mind,
In my heart
In my soul

You're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You're the inspiration
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me sayin'
No one needs you more than I need you

And I know, yes I know that it's plain to see
We're so in love when we're together
And I know that I need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time


(Obidala, from Obi-Wan's point of view.)

White Flag - Dido
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
Or tell you that
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
Then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on ...

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be


(This not only applies to Padmé's feelings when she reunites with Obi-Wan in the AtoC part of the fic, but to my own personal feelings about the Obi-Wan/Padmé ship as a whole, particularly when I have to defend myself against bashers and people who are just being idiots. "I will go down with this ship/And I won't put my hands up and surrender/There will be no white flag above my door/I'm in love and always will be" ... YEP. :D)

Our Solemn Hour - Within Temptation
In my darkest hours
I could not foresee
That the tide could turn so fast to this degree
Can't believe my eyes, how can you be so blind
Is the heart of stone, no empathy inside
Time keeps on slipping away
And we haven't learned
So in the end now what have we gained

Sanctus espiritus, redeem us from our solemn hour
Sanctus espiritus, insanity is all around us
Sanctus espiritus, is this what we deserve
Can we break free
From chains of neverending agony

Are they themselves to blame
The misery, the pain
Didn't we let go, allowed it, let it grow
If we can't restrain
The beast which dwells inside
It will find its way somehow, somewhere in time

Will we remember all of the suffering
'Cause if we fail it will be in vain


(This is RotS, and the period immediately after it. Great song - very powerful and moving in a way that written lyrics can't really convey.)

Memories - Within Temptation
In this world you tried
Not leaving me alone behind
There's no other way
I prayed to the gods let him stay
The memories ease the pain inside
Now I know why

All of my memories keep you near
In silent moments imagine you here
All of my memories keep you near
Your silent whispers, silent tears

Made me promise I'd try
To find my way back in this life
I hope there is a way
To give me a sign you're okay
Reminds me again it's worth it all
So I can go on

All of my memories keep you near
In silent moments imagine you here
All of my memories keep you near
Your silent whispers, silent tears

Together in all these memories
I see your smile
All the memories I hold dear
Darling, you know I will love you
Until the end of time


(I'd LOVE to be able to say something about this one, simply because it's one of those songs that will be so meaningful for a future part of the fic. But, alas, that would be too spoilery, so I'll sit on my hands. It has to do with Obi-Wan/Padmé, though, obviously.)

Stand My Ground - Within Temptation
I can see
When you stay low nothing happens
Does it feel right?

Late at night
Things I thought I put behind me
Haunt my mind

I just know there's no escape now
Once it sets its eyes on you
But I won't run, have to stare it in the eye

Stand my ground, I won't give in
No more denying, I got to face it
Won't close my eyes and hide the truth inside
If I don't make it, someone else will stand my ground

It's all around
Getting stronger, coming closer
Into my world

I can feel
That it's time for me to face it
Can I take it?

Though this might just be the ending
Of the life I held so dear
But I won't run, there's no turning back from here


(Again, not saying a whole lot about this song either due to spoilers. It is not, however, from either Obi-Wan's or Padmé's point of view.)

Forsaken - Within Temptation
Now the day has come
We are forsaken this time

We lived our lives in our paradise,
As gods we shaped the world around
No borderlines we'd stay behind,
Though balance is something fragile

While we thought we were gaining,
We'd turn back the time, it still slips away
Our time has run out, our future has died,
There's no more escape

Now the day has come,
We are forsaken,
There's no time anymore
Life will pass us by,
We are forsaken,
We're the last of our kind

The sacrifice was much too high,
Our greed just made us all go blind
We tried to hide what we feared inside
Today is the end of tomorrow

As the sea started rising,
The land that we conquered just washed away
Although we all have tried to turn back the tide,
It was all in vain

Now the day has come,
We are forsaken,
There's no time anymore
Life will pass us by, we are forsaken,
Only ruins stay behind

Now the day has come
We are forsaken this time


(Anakin's fall, and the destruction of the Jedi Order. When considered in that context, almost every word of this song resonates.)

Angels - Within Temptation
Sparkling angel I believe
You were my savior in my time of need.
Blinded by faith I couldn't hear
All the whispers, the warnings so clear.
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door.
There's no escape now,
No mercy no more.
No remorse cause I still remember

The smile when you tore me apart.
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.

Sparkling angel, I couldn't see
Your dark intentions, your feelings for me.
Fallen angel, tell me why?
What is the reason, the thorn in your eye?
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door
There's no escape now
No mercy no more
No remorse cause I still remember

The smile when you tore me apart
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.
Could have been forever.
Now we have reached the end.

This world may have failed you,
It doesn't give you reason why
You could have chosen a different path in life


(Anakin's fall, from both Padmé's and Obi-Wan's perspective. Obviously some parts apply more to one member of the couple than the other, but this is still a pretty accurate portrayal of how they feel sometimes.)

It's the Fear - Within Temptation
It waits for the day I will let it out
To give it a reason, to give it its might

I fear who I am becoming,
I feel that I'm losing the struggle within
I can no longer restrain it,
My strength it is fading,
I have to give in

It's the fear
Fear of the dark
It's growing inside of me,
That one day will come to life
Have to save
To save my beloved,
There is no escape,
Because my faith is horror and doom

Hold down your head now,
Just let me pass by
Don't feed my fear,
If you don't want it out

I fear who I am becoming,
I feel that I'm losing all beauty within
I can no longer restrain it,
My strength, it is fading
I have to give in

It's the fear
Fear of the dark
It's growing inside of me,
That one day will come to life
Have to save
To save my beloved,
There is no escape,
because my faith is horror and doom

Long ago, it came to me
And ever since that day,
Infected with its rage
but it ends today


(Four words: Anakin Skywalker in RotS. *sighs* *KICKS Palpatine*)

Right In Front Of You - Celine Dion
Life
It can twist your heart
Put you in the dark
I was cold and lonely

Doubt
It can close you in
Build the walls within
I let fear control me
I let go
Didn't know
Where the answer would be

Right in front of you
Right in front of me
We were looking
But somehow, some way
We couldn't see
That the love was always there
It's been around us everywhere
I had to fall to finally see
That you were right in front of me

Faith
It can lift you up
And we've got enough
To reach a new beginning

Love
Can withstand a storm
In the final hour
We'll find the joy in living
Don't let go
'Cause that I know
Pretty soon you will see

Right in front of you
Right in front of me
We were looking
But somehow, some way
We couldn't see
That the love was always there
It's been around us everywhere
I had to fall to finally see
That you were right in front of me

You are my tomorrow
There's safety in your arms
Where you go, I'll follow
'Cause you're the world where I belong


(From both Obi-Wan's and Padmé's point of view, I think, with regards to their relationship.)

Pale - Within Temptation
The world seems not the same
Though I know nothing has changed
It's all my state of mind
I can't leave it all behind
Have to stand up to be stronger

Have to try to break free
From the thoughts in my mind
Use the time that I have
I can't say goodbye
Have to make it right
Have to fight, cause I know
In the end it's worthwhile
That the pain that I feel slowly fades away
It will be alright

I know, should realize
Time is precious, it is worthwhile
Despite how I feel inside
Have to trust it'll be all right
Have to stand up to be stronger

I have to try to break free
From the thoughts in my mind
Use the time that I have
I can't say goodbye
Have to make it right
Have to fight, cause I know
In the end it's worthwhile
That the pain that I feel slowly fades away
It will be all right

Oh, this night is too long
Have no strength to go on
No more pain, I'm floating away
Through the mist see the face
Of an angel, who calls my name
I remember you're the reason I have to stay


(Padmé's point of view during the twins' birth.)

Somewhere - Within Temptation
Lost in the darkness, hoping for a sign
Instead there is only silence,
Can't you hear my screams?
Never stop hoping,
Need to know where you are
But one thing's for sure,
You're always in my heart

I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying until my dying day
I just need to know whatever has happened,
The truth will free my soul

Lost in the darkness, try to find your way home
I want to embrace you and never let you go
Almost hope you're in heaven so no one can hurt your soul
Living in agony 'cause I just do not know
Where you are

I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying until my dying day
I just need to know whatever has happened,
The truth will free my soul

Wherever you are, I won't stop searching
Whatever it takes, need to know

I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying until my dying day
I just need to know whatever has happened,
The truth will free my soul


(Another song that I DESPERATELY want to explain, but can't because of spoilers. About the only thing I can say is that again, this is from neither Obi-Wan's nor Padmé's point of view.)

I Grieve - Peter Gabriel
It was only one hour ago
It was all so different then
There's nothing yet has really sunk in
Looks like it always did
This flesh and bone
It's just the way that you're tied in
Now there's no one home

I grieve for you
You leave me
So hard to move on
Still loving what's gone
They say life carries on
Carries on and on and on and on

The news that truly shocks is the empty empty page
While the final rattle rocks its empty empty cage
And I can't handle this

I grieve for you
You leave me
Let it out and move on
Missing what's gone
They say life carries on
They say life carries on and on and on

Life carries on
In the people i meet
In everyone that's out on the street
In all the dogs and cats
In the flies and rats
In the rot and the rust
In the ashes and the dust
Life carries on and on and on and on
Life carries on and on and on

It's just the car that we ride in
A home we reside in
The face that we hide in
The way we are tied in
And life carries on and on and on and on
Life carries on and on and on

Did I dream this belief?
Or did I believe this dream?
Now I can find relief
I grieve


(Can't say much, except ... Obi-Wan's POV. *facepalm*)

Run To You - Whitney Houston
I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find
A girl who's scared sometimes
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me?
I feel so all alone

I wanna run to you
I wanna run to you
Won't you hold me in your arms
And keep me safe from harm
I wanna run to you
But if I come to you
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away

Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night I come home and turn the key
There's nobody there, no one cares for me
What's the sense of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share it with
Tell me what does it mean?

I wanna run to you
I wanna run to you
Won't you hold me in your arms
And keep me safe from harm
I wanna run to you
But if I come to you
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away

I need you here
I need you here to wipe away my tears
To kiss away my fears
If you only knew how much ...


(Padmé's point of view during AtoC.)

The Boy I'm Going To Marry
Today I met the boy I'm gonna marry
He's all I wanted all my life and even more
He smiled at me and the music started playing
Here comes the bride when he walked through the door
Today I met the boy I'm gonna marry
The boy whose life and dreams and love I wanna share
The boy whose on my hand a band of gold will bear
The band of gold I always dreamed I'd wear
When we kissed I felt a sweet sensation
This time it wasn't just my imagination
Today I met the boy I'm gonna marry
He's just what I've been waiting for oh yes
With every kiss it's as if my heart keeps saying
Today I met the boy I'm gonna marry


(Pure Obidala. Hehehehe.)

Blackbird - Sarah McLachlan
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free

Blackbird fly, blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night
Blackbird fly, blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise


(I can't really explain this one too much, both because I don't want to be spoilery and because it has a very fluid, abstract meaning when it comes to TIS. It could be applied to several people, events and situations, really, but it still holds a lot of significance.

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